Avoiding my deadlines and exams

A JOB!

Ok I have to spill the beans....I've got my first proper, longterm teacher job!!!!! And even better: at a Waldorf School
Going to be teaching plenty of subjects, be the classteacher for 6-8th grade, a do what I have been dreaming about for ages
Today I feel blessed :D

Wonder what will happen next....

Dear Ireland

I'm writing this because you have earned it. You've earned in the most peculiar ways a place in my heart. Deep within me there must be a drop of some irish (perhaps green) blood, that have turned my life upside down.

It started with something innocent, just a melody from a fiddle. And the seed was planted, I was hooked. So your melody led me unto a path I could not see the magnitude of. 13 years after that melody, I'm still wandering along that road with nothing to lead me but my heart. And at every bend, I've discovered something new. Some things wonderful, some things that makes me feel ashamed, some things makes me angry and some makes me laugh and smile.

Why, Ireland, have you captured my heart? With your history, your language, culture, music and people. Are you secretly trying to make me into an Irish woman?

Any ways: thanks for the company so far and happy St Patricks Day

B.O.O.K

Introducing the new Bio-Optical Organized Knowledge device, trade named B.O.O.K.

BOOK is a revolutionary breakthrough in technology; no wires, no electric circuits, no batteries, nothing to be connected or switched on. It's so easy to use, even a child can operate it. Compact and portable, it can be used anywhere -- even sitting in an armchair by the fire -- yet it is powerful enough to hold as much information as a CD-ROM disc.

Here's how it works.

BOOK is constructed of sequentially numbered sheets of paper (recyclable), each capable of holding thousands of bits of information. The pages are locked together with a custom fit device called a binder which keeps the sheets in their correct sequence. Opaque Paper Technology (OPT) allows manufacturers to use both sides of the sheet, doubling the information density and cutting costs. Experts are divided on the prospects for further increases in information density; for now, BOOKs with more information simply use more pages. Each sheet is scanned optically, registering information directly into your brain.
A flick of the finger takes you to the next sheet.

BOOK may be taken up at any time and used merely by opening it.

BOOK never crashes or requires rebooting, though like other devices, it can become damaged if coffee or soda is spilled on it, and it becomes unusable if dropped too many times on a hard surface. The browse feature allows you to move instantly to any sheet and to move forward or backward as you wish.

Many come with an index feature which pinpoints the exact location of selected information for instant retrieval.

A Manually Accessed Retrieval Knickknack (MARK) allows users to open BOOK to the exact place they left off in a previous session - even if BOOK has been closed. BOOKmarks fit universal design standards; thus, a single BOOKmark can be used in BOOKs by various manufacturers. Conversely, numerous BOOKmarks can be used in a single BOOK if the user wants to store numerous views at once. The number is limited only by the number of pages in a BOOK.

Portable, durable, and affordable, BOOK is being hailed as a precursor of a new entertainment wave.

BOOK's appeal seems so certain that thousands of content creators have committed to the platform and investors are reportedly flocking to invest. In some areas, entire buildings are constructed to house BOOKs for public access. Look for a flood of new titles soon.

A little christmassong....

a nice and frustrating little christmassong interpreted by the wonderful King's Singers

Thank you

To my abuser

This is a letter I should have written a long time ago.  A letter to tell you how I feel, to tell you how I walk on through the storm of my own life, despite of you.  Because my life goes on, second by second. Some seconds are painful and tears up the wounds you inflicted on my soul, but others are filled with joy and strength. Strength to move on, to take control over my life.  I’m not yours to have.  I’m my own, not a thing to be used at will, but a soul with an amazing capacity to grow.

You came into my life at one of those weak seconds when all I wanted was to be understood, to be seen. And you saw, gained my trust and destroyed it in one foul move. I couldn’t feel the pain then, but the hole in my soul and mind grew steadily until I broke 9 years later. I kept it within, carried a heavy burden no child should bear alone. But I did.

9 years later the gaping hole to my own personal hell opened once more, and dragged me down and away from life itself. Pulling me senselessly towards the edge, made me taste blood again. But I stopped before I fell…or so it felt. I despised myself, hated the fact that I was a human being capable of feeling love and lust…I just wanted to kill the feelings within, distract me from the cruel reality. I beat myself, physically and mentally, and all it did was to make me feel it even stronger. I buried it and myself in two different graves, and tried to forget

To no avail….

Your ghost is trying to spook me again, trying to make me less of a woman that I am, trying to take my humanity from me…but you will not succeed. Yes, it is painful and the thoughts make me cry and prevent me from sleeping dreamless dreams. But NO! I won’t give in…NEVER!

A smile in a sad time

The autumn is here again, with rain, wind and colds that don't want to let go. On top of all this: my mind feels crushed. No inspiration, no energy, just memories I thought were dead that are being dug up again...and again.
So when I'm all alone in the dark and the demons are crawling in, I have to fight. I fight in any way that I can, and I cling to anything that can put a smile on my face.
Today it was this song:'






And yes; it's a One Direction-song...I'm too old for this right?
But to speak the truth: this melody hits just the right notes for me (pun intended), it makes me put all my dark clouds for a while and just enjoy life for a moment

And to sooth my mind after such a happy moment I turn to the very same artist for this:




This melody can't really be described with words, so just listen

A new life in an old town

Change. To make new footprints inbetween an old life. And once more change has wandered into my life and turned it about.
So here I am; alone. Meaning single. It's a strange thing to be and experience after nearly two years safe within a relationship with a wonderful man. But all good things come to an end, and so did this.
Where will life take me next? 
Here are the facts I have to abide to for the next 12 months:

• I'm still a student and will this year be studying teaching theories and classmanagement in norwegian, history and social science. Which means I will have a lot to do (papers, practice in both secondary school and high school and studygroups)
• I'm the studentrepresentative for my class, the connection between them and the "ruling class of the university" :p
• I have my choirresponsibilities to attend to, and before Christmas we will have 2 concerts: John Rutters Requiem and Bach's Christmas Oratorio

So as you can see I will hopefully stay afloat for another year and maybe find joy and happiness in new venues of life.

 

A new (but healthy) addiction

Lately I've found myself a new addiction: bicycling
Hamar is full of wonderful tracks and trails to follow, and my goal is to have a 10 km-trip every day, and so far I've succeeded. This new addiction also comes with a huge healthbenefit, both physically and mentally. On my daily trips I can deal with all the thoughts that normally bring me down or drive me mad. It makes me happy and had one wonderful experience last friday when I was tackling a long heavy hill. The sun was shining, but the heavens opened and I got soaked. But my how happy it made me, I was smiling the whole way home.

Last week I got myself a cyclecomputer to attach to my bike to measure distance, speed and calories burned. And being able to do this, I can keep on challenging myself and so far I've travelled about 181 kilometers! Wonder how far I will get by the end of summer.
Keep up and I will tell you